Life as of yet
somedays are better than others, yet some days are completely horrible! Idk what to think or what to do, who to turn to or who to stay away from! AT times I just want to lock myself in my room and not come out or answer my phone. From family problems to school to relationships things get so crazy and i’m on the verge of a breakdown. I’ve become more emotional when it comes to certain topics, but it seems as if to others they do not care about my feelings or how complicated things have become since the beginning. The holidays are here and it’s going to be so different not knowing what to, do I go home or do I just keep my distance and stey away. Apart of me thinks it’ll be better if I stay away just so that I can aviod any more complications. Than again I love my family and hate being away from them. Idk what to do!! :( Also going home beings back memories of the past and it just does not make me feek any better. I think i’m just going to stay way for the rest of the holidays and avoid any more pain towards myself!
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I miss my best friend kimm!! Back in the valley after a month of being in corpus…it feels different :( I feel so alone!!! School starts in a week oh lord I want this semester to go by super fast so I can see me best friend for another month!!!
trapped in a triangle!
im trapped in this triangle i cant seem to work my way out of!! i need help!!! i love and miss efrain deeply it hasnt been easy for me to let this break up go. i seem happy & over it but im truly not i still cry at times…i cry myself to sleep…i cry when im alone…i cry when we talk & we laugh like nothin happened…it kills me knowing we arent together & friends is all were going to be!! i cry just the thought of all our good times & how he could just let it all go…yes we had more than our fair share of arguments but nothing felt more amazing than being in his arms, kissing him, feeling his hand in mine! not only do i have all these emotions inside but im caught between two friends…marco is a great friend of mine & we talk so much i love talking to him & the fact that i can just be me around him! he calls me every morning every night & every chance he gets during the day just to see how my day is going. is is a great listener & totally understanding of anything im going through! we both decided no long distance relationship but its hard not to gain some feelings when all we do is talk about any & everything that comes to mind. the third point to this triangle is dee….dee really likes me but i just dont see him like that! he is a good friend & i dont wanna hurt him. he is always coming over & i just need my space for myself! with both marco & dee i dont want anything with them cause i love efrain with all i have! its super hard to get over someone you gave your everything too!! i dont know what to do i miss efrain oh so much, marco is great, & dee is just a friend…..ahhh i hate this! i wish i still had efrain so none of this would be going on right now!!!………ugh i need time to myself to recollect my thoughts & what i really want!
GOD is always by my side so i know he will guide me through this to the of his ability!!
my life as of yet!
this past week was very difficult for me! from school to rent to guys….it just wasnt like other weeks! i came out of this week in one piece so i know ill be fine this coming week and the ones to come! the break is near & im ready to go out & have fun with my friends & family! im not gonna let these things bring me down..im better than that! i have auditions in less than a month so im gonna prepare for that :) wish me luck!!!
You know it’s true love when no matter how far the distance is he can still make you smile.
What I have with him is worth it. It is worth every lonely night, every tear I cry from missing him, and the pain I feel from not having him close. It is worth it because he is my one and only. When I picture myself years from now, I see only him. No matter how painful distance can be, not having him in my life would be worse.
the weekend to come!
the weekend is almost here & i cant wait! i cant wait to see my boyfriend! its been since christmas since i’ve last seen him! im super excited & can only hope for the best! not everything turns out to be what u expect so only time can tell! even if the weekend dont go great it’ll be perfect to me cause at least i got to see him!!
HOPING FOR THE BEST!
reality!
-i hope everything gets better
-i hope that this semester goes better than its starting out
-i miss my dad, i miss the relationship we had, i miss talking to him everyday
-im frustrated with ***** i just cant understand why she doesn’t stop. she knows the facts, but just cant seem to process it through her head! :(
-i love that my relationship with efrain is getting better & stronger! :)
-god has a plan for my life, i give myself to him and i follow the path he has set out for me!
hoping for the best!
